In This Commotion

Springtime is here and change is in the air it seems. Over the last few months I’ve been working on pushing myself to bigger and better things or at very least more challenging ones. At work I’ve really been pushing myself to go further than I have in the past. It’s not so much a skate by the day sort of thing anymore as much as it’s a team effort sort of feeling. Really with where I’m at now it really is. If one person doesn’t do their job correctly then the rest of us suffer and while that’s a bit more pressure, I think I like it that way. I’m surprised to hear myself say that I’m preferring a team effort over an every man for himself sort of thing. Lately that’s what I’ve felt like I’m doing or wanting anyway. Then again, most of my life I’ve been that way in varied places. I really enjoy being by myself for long periods of time where I feel I can express myself to the fullest extent and not be nervous or scared to try this or that or accomplish whatever or sing louder or dance in front of the mirror in a weirder way or whatever the occasion may be. Especially in the last couple of years it’s been more of a if you want something done right do it yourself kind of attitude so it’s refreshing to see that I’m vaguely warming up to including other people a little bit.

Back to pushing myself tho, I find it even better if the pushing I’m doing is due to a personal project that I’ve set a partially unrealistic deadline for. Case in point: a music video for our song D.T.A. Over the last few months I’ve been acquiring real professional equipment and it just hit me not too long ago that I need something to do with it, so why not do what I always do when I need to branch out and test my skills? It seems like it’s always worked to get me there in the past anyway. So last night we all gathered in front of my green screen and shot a little video that was a lot of fun. It was a goofy little time and there was lots of fun to be had. Pulling up the footage today I see a lot of good stuff, but realizing that it’s going to be a nightmare putting it all together in the short amount of time I’ve given myself for it and that’s ok. It’s going to push me to overcome obstacles and learn new techniques and things I need to know anyway. I’ve already learned no less than ten new things about Adobe Premiere in the last 24 hours that I never know in the 10+ years I’ve been working with this program and I’m just getting started! Maybe it really will be time to jump back into attempting to get a job in my field before too long, who knows.