2010 In Review

At first glance 2010 was really shaping up to be the best year of my life. Well maybe not best, but certainly the most life changing and in many ways that’s very true. I’ll try to not dwell on the present with a lot of these events, but lets take a look back anyway. January started out wonderfully. For about a month in the previous year Virginia and I had “broken up” for a bit. We still talked and were close, but weren’t technically dating due to lots of little insecurities on my part, but when I figured myself out it got hairy and we talked it out and after a few days in early December we had gotten back together. She had come to visit the week after Christmas and we spent New Year’s together. On January 2nd we were in the car and en route back up to Rexburg for the final two semesters of school, for me at least. Things clicked back like they usually do at school. Having to freeze to death for awhile as I got adjusted to the horrible snow and freezing cold. The only difference this time around was that I was moving in with two of my previous roommates and good friends as well as starting out the year with a wonderful girl in tow right from the start. Good deal.
Not much happened for a few months to be honest. At the end of January we drove to Park City to see a free impromptu performance by 30 Seconds To Mars and I got my second taste of driving in a blizzard. The first being on the drive to Rexburg previously in the month. My days were so busy, they consisted of class, homework, spending time with Virginia, and just trying to get things figured out and straightened out with my classes so I could graduate in the spring. I got in a huge fight with one of my roommates who really didn’t care for me that much. That’s ok, because I didn’t really like the guy either, but I never bothered him. Apparently not being his friend was a problem, but whatever. I took classes that were more suited to my major and I did well in school, again with Virginia’s help and ever diligent eye for design. Got stuck in another blizzard on the way back from seeing Muse in Salt Lake in early April. That one freaked me out as the normal 4 hour drive took close to 7 to get back home in time to take a Spanish final a few hours later.
Between semesters I spent a week at home as well as two days of that week in a real recording studio to record the T3 S/T EP and that was a super fun experience. Tensions were high by the second day, but everyone had fun and it was interesting to say the least. The final semester started off frighteningly but mostly to a good start. A majority of my time was now all homework with me doing homework at Virginia’s apartment while she just hung out, now that she was out of school for the year. At some point in April or May her sister moved to Rexburg, so she spent a lot of time with her instead. I met a lot of new friends in my broadcasting classes and learned a great deal of things towards what I want to do with my life and had a fun time building up a portfolio. I nervously bought an engagement ring in late April and held onto it until the end of June. Her parents were visiting in early June and I swallowed my fear and approached them with the idea and with their consent I proposed on a Saturday on a picnic/hike outside of town. Life was pretty sweet.
The rest of the school year until July was very hectic and stressful with school kicking the crap out of me and being so tired all the time. Not to mention allergies beating me shitless. There was also the wonder that I was engaged, but the fear that I wouldn’t be spending time with her except for a few visits until the marriage next year. Not fun, but we soldiered on. July came with a visit to bear world, graduation, Disney Land, and a horrible goodbye in a hotel in Salt Lake.
Back at home in August I immediately started back at the bookstore until mid September. Then I spent a good month at home splitting time between being depressed, laying around, and job hunting. I made extensive plans for travel around to different cities for job opportunities and visiting family. I started out with a trip to Il. to visit my oldest sister and her family for about a week. It was the most relaxing and peaceful I had felt in months. From there I drove to middle of nowhere Missouri to visit my friend’s brother to start a business venture with his local access cable show. After another week I flew to Washington DC to spend a week with my middle sister Pam and relax a little bit, with some advice and job things mingled in. From there it was the reward trip of flying out to Salt Lake for a weekend with Virginia. It didn’t get off to a great start, but it was well worth the wait and wonderful to see her again face to face and not on skype. Sadly this was the last time I ever did so.
Flying back home was depressing as now I had no job, no leads, and now no money. I spent a good time searching and searching for a job but coming up with nothing. Eventually resorting to going back to the bookstore in the meantime so I could pay my bills. Over the course of a few months starting in September or so, Virginia began to fight a lot. Usually about little things that got blown out of proportion that eventually led to her dumping me at the end of November. I still don’t have a complete reason as to why, but my suspicions lie in a few things from the time we started fighting. There were no problems while I was out there or even leading up to then anyway. But that’s not important here.
A few weeks ago I started back up at the bookstore where I’ll be until mid January or so. So now I sit here, virtually no money, a not super effort job, and nothing left to shoot for. The question I ask myself here is with a year so full of promise how did it end up this way? And what do I do now? I literally have nothing left other than debt and bills. Not a happy ending to the year, but optimistically I suppose I can say that 2011 can’t possibly be any worse. It will just be interesting to see how it goes and where I’ll be this time next year.