(This was written yesterday and I thought I posted it but apparently I just saved it instead. Still holds up tho.)
My finger hurts right now. Its doing that mild throbbing thing that happens after you smash it in a door or drop something on it. Its been like this since right before I got off work as I did in fact smash my finger under some metal pans. Nothing bad or anything that left a mark or anything, just a lasting and annoying pain in my finger. Someone else around that same time got their finger cut off in some freak accident. I don't know who or where, but the world is a big enough place that I'm sure it did.
To me in that little moment it was pain city at least for a few minutes as that calming adrenaline feeling washed over the pain after a few minutes leaving a shakey wobbly feeling before it finally just faded into a dull thud. To me that was not a detrimental thing, but in my world at that particular moment it hurt and I was thinking about it. It reminds me of a lesson I learned today.
When we are blissfully unaware of the world around us, our own problems seem huge and scary. Even if we are aware of our surroundings our problems seem huge and scary but that's just how life works. Everybody has trials and they are both great and small. Some difficult things for you might not be even a challenge for others and the other way around. Sometimes we are pretty much brought to our knees by things that are so difficult we curse the life and imagine that everything is just about to give way into complete destruction and to us in our own world it sure might feel like it. But... odds are while you can't compare your problems to those of others, just like the whole smashing your finger versus cutting off your finger, there is always something far greater of a challenge out there. Sometimes from people you know.
The point is occasionally being aware of the other things going on in peoples lives makes your own problems seem petty and small. That's how I'm feeling today anyway. The last 6 or so months have been my own personal hell on earth but after looking back into a friend of mine's life from the past few years I just felt bad for complaining so much about my own little problems and seeing that honestly they aren't as bad as they could be in life and much worse things could ever happen. Sure trials are relative to each and every person and you really shouldn't compare to other people but sometimes its hard not to. Or in this case just feeling bad for being unable to deal with the honestly light enough load that I've been given. It could be much worse. Not to still be talking about my friend, but it makes me think in more general terms. Maybe that's a helpful tool in the long run perhaps? A sort of "hey suck it up, get over it, and buck up." I dunno, just lost in thought today is all.
"trials are relative to each and every person and you really shouldn't compare to other people"
ReplyDeleteWe've both been through our own amount of trials in our lives. But no, you really can't compare to other people's hardships because like you've said, it's relative. I hope that you never have to know pain worse than what you had to deal with the last six months. That doesn't make what you went through any less of a trial in your life or less real or less painful, or anything. Just different. I hope this makes sense.
And thank you again for being there for me through my crap. I'm sorry there's so much of it sometimes.