I think I'm getting sick and that's no good. I did the neighborly friendly thing yesterday and ran some soup and medicine to a friend and hung around probably a bit too long yesterday and now I'm feeling a little under the weather but not completely so far, so we'll see what happens. Not a good combination: being sick and being depressed. Not at all. Throw a snow day on top of that where I think the roads will be iced over tonight if not right now and you can put a mash up of crappyness all together.
I think the worst part of being left behind is not just the feeling of being replaced but mostly the feeling of I don't really care about you anymore and you'll never see me ever again that is the worst part.
That and trying to replace old memories when I go to various places with new ones. February is just a crappy month to start with, March will be ok, April will be extremely hard and then I think it'll get better from there. It has to. It just has to.
Obviously I've never had your experience, but I have had some experiences that,in the moment and for some time after, I thought I could not rebound from (Sept. 2010 experience most recently for one thing...) Finally now in January I am seeing progress with that one in particular...it takes some serious time with some things, but it is possible. Te amo!
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