So tomorrow we perform again for the first time in months as T3. I personally will perform for the first time as a solo-ish acoustic act as Polar Bears n The Jungle. Excited? Sure, but a little nervous as well. While I've been riddled with disease this last week it hasn't left me with much prep work for my own set. Will it be ok? Absolutely, but none the less I always get nervous before shows. Now its time to really put myself to the test and see if I can truly handle it on my own. Ironic considering the turn of events really.
Honestly tho tomorrow will only be a good gauge to myself if nothing else, on seeing if I have the ability to do it and like it. It won't be a good example of what I'd normally be doing at all. I plan on playing all of my silly songs tomorrow and not my other ones that I actually like. I'm still on the fence about playing 1,000 years tomorrow, but I'm not sure if I should. Its really not fitting in with any of the rest of the set, nor the evening but I like it and its my show so.... who knows. If I like doing it, maybe I'll drop into an open mic night somewhere in the future and do PBnJ again only with my real music. Maybe, maybe not. I do know I'm going to re-record them all again in the near future tho. The ones I did the other day don't sound all that great even if there are 12 or so of them. It can always sound better.
So what am I really doing now? Just sitting and wondering and thinking. There's a lot more at steak in my mind than whats really on the table tomorrow. I think between the two sets I'm just going to be proving to myself that I do have something of worth to get out there. Maybe not the best thing in the world, but hey I'm not just something to be tossed aside. Or maybe that's being a tad dramatic, but as I've been saying for two months now, I just need a win right now. Just one. And I'm putting my chips on tomorrow being just that so I can get a bit better grounding here.
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