Day One

I woke up this morning and something honestly felt different. Relaxing even. As I'm staring out the window its not exactly sunny, but the light is peeking through the clouds a little although I know its going to storm later today and I think at various points this week, but at the moment its serene and pretty outside.

That's how I feel inside as well. I feel good today. I got good sleep last night, no nightmares, I spent yesterday laughing and enjoying myself almost not thinking about what I was worrying about at all. I build things up too much in head sometimes and create monstrous enemies that I can't possibly face. But its all over now and hey I feel better.

Its time to start a new life and time to explore the possibilities of things for me alone and not wait around anymore. To stop being haunted by the ghosts of the past. I can wish all day long and hope and dream, but that wont change the fact if somebody hates your guts. I guess I shouldn't worry about it anymore. Its become just another part of the story now. Sure that feeling of strong love will always be there, but now its accepted its fate and will just hang out with the other things down in there that had their moment and now sit on a rocking chair reminiscing of the good old days. Sorry old timer, it wasn't your time either, my bad.

Yesterday was a pretty alright day. Today will be even better.