Today while it didn't feel like it was progressive to say the least:
-finally got access to both websites for my two loans so I can start a direct deposit into them starting with my paycheck this weekend
-got the give go about being paid for that wedding video, so this month might actually prove to get a little ahead in savings perhaps if I'm smart about it?
-talked and thought a bit more about moving whenever I do in the near future. Its going to happen I just wonder when
-took a nap. that didn't help anything, but it was the perfect temperature in my room so its ok
-made lots of other conscious decisions about the near future
-tried not to think about the what ifs and what would bes this week (didn't do so hot on that, but I'm getting better at it).
So I'll call it progress if any I suppose. I'm having the hardest time with that last one currently as its really wrecking everything about me at the moment. I'm a person who remembers dates, times, memories, and the like of relationships, friendships, and other ships almost to the point of obsession which is great when I'm involved in them still but its pretty horrible if things don't work out. These next two weeks are going to be just awful because of that. Hopefully they'll get better otherwise. And hopefully I can stop thinking that instead of heading to Memphis this weekend I would be heading to Isabella instead. : / Oh well.
That still sounds like some progress. As for remembering dates and memories to the point of obsession, I understand that (cause I do it too) - so now it's just time to make some more memories. If you need some distraction from things in the past, there's plenty of fun things we can do now.
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