ho hum

I honestly just don't have anything to say in here anymore or about anything in general it seems. Maybe I'm just in a funk. Ok, no maybe I just am. I haven't really written anything musically in awhile either in any of my three projects that I've got going on. I just don't feel very creative at the moment. I've got my hands in quite a few projects at the moment but they've all come to a stand still.

Alternatively, I've started making some of the steps I had outlined to fix a few things in my life a little at a time and that's working out very very slowly, but any progress in my life at the moment is better than none. First step has been finances and while still not back on my feet yet, I'm at least figuring out this plan I have to get myself a little more stable. Once that is accomplished its a two headed dragon of getting back on the job train of something that would actually justify me going to school in the first place, or at very least something that won't make me sweat to cover my bills every month. The other head being moving out. I know that I could technically live here for as long as I want and it would be easy and nice and all that jazz, but that wouldn't make life any better. I'm 26 and still living at home. Its been very helpful at various points to have a place I can rest my head while I recover from various hardships over the years but I really don't think its going to be any more helpful for me to keep running back to a safe haven anymore. I wouldn't be where I am today nor have been able to get through everything I have had I not had that option and I'm extremely grateful for it but still, its time to take the bad with the good in life and do it on my own. I probably should have done it a long time ago, but hey you can't change the past so whatever. If things had turned out differently I'd either already had moved out by now or about to anyway so I guess that plan hasn't changed, just delayed.

There are other things in the mix that make life a little more complicated but honestly I think its the good kind of complicated at the moment. And thats ok too. I'm actually smiling thinking about it, but hey thats a good thing right?